How My Miscarriage Changed My Husband’s Attitude (final)
Though it felt like an eternity, we never stopped trying & we never stopped praying for a child. Our hearts weathered through some of the roughest storms but we hung onto God’s faithfulness that he’d provide in His timing. Boy, was he right on time-I found out I was pregnant again EXACTLY one year after my miscarriage!
We cried in joy over the positive pregnancy test but our emotions were quickly overtaken by the past heartaches and the what if’s. Our hearts were guarded and we weren’t fully going to accept this only to be broken again- it’s fascinating how one bad experience can change your entire view. A positive pregnancy test wasn’t enough to make it all feel real especially because I didn’t experience any early pregnancy symptoms as I did before; no morning sickness or feeling fatigue. So before our 1st ultrasound appointment my husband and I talked about the possibility that we could be walking into either good or bad news. We prepared our hearts by talking out the best and worst case scenarios and then to the appointment we went. The doctor began by asking a few questions for the first 10 minutes; every question made my heart race faster & faster with anxiousness! Finally, the moment was at hand ….as I laid down on that table, the Dr. placed the Doppler on my stomach and within a few seconds…..our ears were greeted with the sweetest sound we’ve ever heard….Olivia’s heartbeat.