Before my husband and I even had a name picked out for our baby girl, we’ve already decided we wanted to breastfeed, because of all the benefits we’ve heard it would have. However, I was hit with a gruel reality when the time came: WHAT NO ONE REALLY TALKS ABOUT is the real stuff – the stuff like introverted nipples, engorged breast and how you will probably get an infection! The time and energy to latch baby and/or pump & the emotional roller coaster ride it will put you through before you see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Am I pumping enough? Am I producing enough? Is baby eating enough?What is she doing? How is she doing it? How did she store so much? When do I start making more?
Geesh! wonder why women get postpartum?!? and what upsets me the most was how bad it made me feel as a new mommy. I was constantly comparing myself and trying to live up to others because they made it look so easy. The whole process itself stressed me out and I became exhausted. So, where do I go from here?
First, I stopped comparing myself and just like anything else it comes with it’s own trials and errors. I ended up in urgent care with a mastitis (similar flu symptoms) yikes and let me tell you it was not fun. I did not produce enough to store… only enough to feed Olivia & no matter how much I try to latch her or pump, my introverted nipples never came out to play. Needless to say, I am a working mom I needed to cut down my pumping sessions to free up time and man I feel great!!!
All I am saying is, you do what you have to do to make it work for your baby; don’t let comparison be your theft of joy!